There is something that happens to a girl when she finally realizes she is more than a body… I hope it scares you because the coals that were laying cold for so long are burning now. Her eyes have a spark and her tongue has a sting. She no longer cares for your opinions on her worth as she slowly picks the petals from her own stem and decides she is more than a flower.
My eyes aren’t blue like the ocean or the sky.
Instead they are brown like the earth that i’ve grown from,
if you look close enough you’ll find flecks of red
left from the blood of my people when we were
robbed of everything that was ours.
You used to kiss my wrists
and paint “love” onto my ribcage
with your finger tips.
Counting to 10,15,35 as I
struggle to come down from
emotions I just could never get ahold of.
You still push your face into the space
between my neck and my shoulder
blades, I can feel you breathing me in
as you let me release everything everyone else
told me to keep in.
your loved ones
slowly lose their breath
choking on your “toxic
narcissistic ways” but maybe
they’re just scared that you know
it’s finally okay to love yourself more than anyone else.
Quiet nights in your arms,
whispering i love yous
and finding each others
scars with our fingertips
are some of my favorite…
You. Oh my god, you… You have this thing that you do to me and I can’t describe it very well but I think I should at least try. It’s like.. That crooked smile, the way your eye kind of twitches because you’re nervous, the way that you jokingly act like you’re so sly even though you really are… And it makes me melt. You’re so not cocky but yet you are confident when it comes to me, to us, and it just reassures me over and over again that you never had that moment.. That moment where you think, “oh, shit.. I don’t love her anymore.” Not even after 12 years together, you still hold me, you still kiss me, you still treat me like a queen and it’s ridiculous how much you’ve changed but haven’t in the same way. I love you. I’ve always loved you and even though you drive me crazy… It has never stopped. It has never decreased… It’s only grown.
From 14 to 26… thank you for being my everything <3.
It’s like the space
there at your chest
inside your arms
was made perfectly
I am one of
of love & sunlight.
when I rushed
arms, I found
I think that if I could go back in time, the only thing I would do differently is not tell as many lies. I would spread myself open wide, giving you full permission to search for whatever you sought. Dig deep within my flaws and tell me, would you still do it all with me? This world we’ve created, would you keep it?
I tucked my vulnerability
away like a secret to hide.
Every time I show
someone my raw insides
they try to destroy
all the softest parts.
I’ll never stop
trying to tell you
that you are